radio killed the radio writer
Jun. 15th, 2024 03:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gnatpackOnce upon a time I remembered to do my Sunday journals. Then everything changed when shit hit the fan.
Of course, as life loves to do, things got complicated at exactly the wrong time. What had been a smooth sailing story development got derailed by my producer having a family emergency. And then, because one emergency is never enough, she also got Covid on top of it. Which meant I would up doing our very first show ever alone and by myself. This was not the fate I had in mind when I agreed to write the show.
The good news is that we made it out of all of this physically unharmed (inconvenience of congestion notwithstanding). The bad news is that my scriptwriting timeline was thoroughly obliterated by having to come up with emergency plans for if she was sick for more than one week. As a result I am writing this instead of working on the script last minute because I'm stressed and need a break.
As much as I enjoy doing this and it's a great opportunity, it's also a volunteer position. Which I am doing for free. Because of the rules of community radio I can't even put stuff up on Patreon to financially benefit from what I'm doing. Overall this is... less than ideal when the amount of time I've spent preparing for our first episode has kept me from actually posting on my Patreon that people are paying me for. Luckily my patrons at this point are mostly friends who care more about supporting me than my consistency. Still, it makes me feel bad that I'm not delivering.
Creatively, I'm drained. And then that's stressful in turn because this is a long term project that I don't really get breaks from any time soon. So what I've I'm doing so much work that it keeps me from making progress elsewhere? I don't know what the answer is. Maybe I'll get lucky and someone will like the radio show so much they just give me a million dollars. I think that sounds like a reasonable thing that might happen.
Summer sucks anyways, though. So the way I feel right now is barely relevant because it's not like I ever thrive when it's this hot out. (I guess it isn't technically summer yet but tell that to the thermometer) The goal right now in general is to just make it through to something better.
Of course, as life loves to do, things got complicated at exactly the wrong time. What had been a smooth sailing story development got derailed by my producer having a family emergency. And then, because one emergency is never enough, she also got Covid on top of it. Which meant I would up doing our very first show ever alone and by myself. This was not the fate I had in mind when I agreed to write the show.
The good news is that we made it out of all of this physically unharmed (inconvenience of congestion notwithstanding). The bad news is that my scriptwriting timeline was thoroughly obliterated by having to come up with emergency plans for if she was sick for more than one week. As a result I am writing this instead of working on the script last minute because I'm stressed and need a break.
As much as I enjoy doing this and it's a great opportunity, it's also a volunteer position. Which I am doing for free. Because of the rules of community radio I can't even put stuff up on Patreon to financially benefit from what I'm doing. Overall this is... less than ideal when the amount of time I've spent preparing for our first episode has kept me from actually posting on my Patreon that people are paying me for. Luckily my patrons at this point are mostly friends who care more about supporting me than my consistency. Still, it makes me feel bad that I'm not delivering.
Creatively, I'm drained. And then that's stressful in turn because this is a long term project that I don't really get breaks from any time soon. So what I've I'm doing so much work that it keeps me from making progress elsewhere? I don't know what the answer is. Maybe I'll get lucky and someone will like the radio show so much they just give me a million dollars. I think that sounds like a reasonable thing that might happen.
Summer sucks anyways, though. So the way I feel right now is barely relevant because it's not like I ever thrive when it's this hot out. (I guess it isn't technically summer yet but tell that to the thermometer) The goal right now in general is to just make it through to something better.
